the dark night

The "dark night of the soul" began to be defined with St John of the Cross. It is knowing even in despair that this is part of our spiritual journey given by God. I know of it at this time of my life. Like the Apostle Paul the good tbat I intended 2 do does not seem 2 get done

Romans 7
17-20But I need something more! For if I know the law but still can't keep it, and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions, I obviously need help! I realize that I don't have what it takes. I can will it, but I can't do it. I decide to do good, but I don't really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. My decisions, such as they are, don't result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time.